The grass IS sometimes greener

I have struggled with my "new" job for a while now. I have worked for 2 months as a new media rep at AT&T Advertising Solutions. So far all I have learned is that my boss has got to have some type of mental disorder and is the biggest liar on the planet. My guess would be psychotic or bipolar?
I want to make it clear, this is not a joke. This woman is actually crazy and lies about almost everything. It has gotten so bad that I literately must question everything she says because 99% of it is total bull.
Working under this type of person has been difficult, and realistically damn near impossible. One minute she is trying to help you to your face the next minute you get an e-mail about how what you did, even though it was her that asked you to do it, will get you written up for insubordination which is grounds for termination.
This woman has threatened my job so often that I just stopped caring all other.
With this on top of the idea of being away from home 5 days a week is just not my ideal situation and not something I was interested in continuing.
There is another position that is better, premise. I see that as the easier job, more laid back and less time consuming with less travel. You have to think to yourself, would it really be better in that position than this one?
We all know there is no such thing as the perfect job. Every job will have its pros and cons but I saw premise as the golden job at att. You don't have to knock doors, or cold call at all. You are given accounts to work and you work them, you make an appointment with the business owner who was waiting for you to call because that is how it goes. Sounds a lot better, right???

IT TOTALLY IS!!!

I got to know the premise guys a lot recently and I truely know they all have their own issues, mostly pay. The difference is the grass really is greener on the other side...my boss is completely insane.

I will never again assume everyone has the same issues as me, the truth of the matter is some times things really are better, sometimes you just aren't in the right position.

Does this mean I will stay with ATT and just transfer to premise...MAYBE....

Divorce

The ugly word that has sadly become a daily occurance...Divorce. Recently I have noticed it creeping into the lives of everyone around me.

Case #1 Kristine and Daniel Downard, a christian couple whom I have known for many years and whom I held in high esteem for their love of the lord and each other, are getting divorced after only 2 short years. I am kind of devastated for them and marriage in general. I went to their wedding and was sure that I was watching something magical happen, something blessed and holy. She woke up one day and was a completely different person. She wanted to be single, go to bars, go drinking and dancing and wanted nothing to do with her husband whom she vowed to always love and honor...:(!!!

Case #2 A high school friend who got married 2 years ago as well and has a 1 year old is now getting a divorce and is working as a waitress to support her son. :(

Case #3 Another friend from middle school who I have fallen out of touch with has recently gotten divorced. She married a guy from our middle school and was hurt very badly by him. She is thrilled to be getting divorced.

Case #4 My best guy friend from middle school who I am still in touch with has told me that his parents got a divorce a few years ago and are still, to this day, fighting over money. They have drained all of their savings and ruined both of their finances in literately years of court costs. His dad now lives on a boat.

Case#5 My co-worker's sister was supposed to have her wedding ceremony this weekend even though she has been married for a year because it was a quick military ceremony...she decided to get divorced instead.

What happened to "until death do us part"? I have the most unfortunate experience of never seeing a marriage actually last and maintain its joy and love. It is so sad. My parents were divorced when I was 6. My mom and dad's closest friends got divorced 3 years ago because the man was cheating on his wife for YEARS! My sister's old boss and a mutual friend of mine just went through a divorce because her husband and best friend for 13 years got another woman pregnant!!!

I have 100% complete faith that Josh and I will be the exception. Josh and I don't believe in divorce as an option to our problems...we're stuck with each other from December 26, 2009 on until we die and go to heaven and I am looking forward to every fight, every make up, our children's birth, our careers blossoming, more fights and more make up and living every day like it was our last.

There is no L-O-V-E in divorce.

Starting Over

It's been 9 months now since I started my life over is more ways than I could imagine at the time. I got married to the love of my life and my high school sweet heart. I also graduated from the University of Florida, the greatest school in the world, or at least the south east. I also moved again and became jobless for the first time in 5 years. It was a new world, a completely different life and I felt scared in some ways and so happy in so many other ways.

Again I am faced with some of the same. I am stepping out into something completely new to me, something I have never really known. I have always been a christian but I can't say I have always been in love with Jesus or completely a believer. I have swayed and fallen many times. I found letting go of my control very difficult. I found completely leaning on God to be impossible.

It has taken me a long time but I am finally starting to get it, we have to give him everything. Nothing works without complete faith that God has got this, he has everything in his hands. Not worrying has been a challenge but something I work at every day. I feel like I really have renewed my life and started over.

I also put in my two weeks notice. I will be jobless on October 8th if nothing else comes my way. I am stepping out on nothing and putting it all in God's hands. He is already giving me a feeling of peace that he will provide and bring me something I love.

I am new, I am starting over.

I will finally get to see Josh everyday, something we have never enjoyed as a married couple. It will be so amazing to be able to finally be a real couple, finally enjoy being married.

I can't wait, I love starting over.