It's been 9 months now since I started my life over is more ways than I could imagine at the time. I got married to the love of my life and my high school sweet heart. I also graduated from the University of Florida, the greatest school in the world, or at least the south east. I also moved again and became jobless for the first time in 5 years. It was a new world, a completely different life and I felt scared in some ways and so happy in so many other ways.
Again I am faced with some of the same. I am stepping out into something completely new to me, something I have never really known. I have always been a christian but I can't say I have always been in love with Jesus or completely a believer. I have swayed and fallen many times. I found letting go of my control very difficult. I found completely leaning on God to be impossible.
It has taken me a long time but I am finally starting to get it, we have to give him everything. Nothing works without complete faith that God has got this, he has everything in his hands. Not worrying has been a challenge but something I work at every day. I feel like I really have renewed my life and started over.
I also put in my two weeks notice. I will be jobless on October 8th if nothing else comes my way. I am stepping out on nothing and putting it all in God's hands. He is already giving me a feeling of peace that he will provide and bring me something I love.
I am new, I am starting over.
I will finally get to see Josh everyday, something we have never enjoyed as a married couple. It will be so amazing to be able to finally be a real couple, finally enjoy being married.
I can't wait, I love starting over.
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